Nakhane Toure particulars battle with melancholy
Musician and Inxeba actor Nakhane Toure recently spoke in an intense essay for covidhqafrica.com about how he survived anxiety and depression during the lockdown.
The actor says he had suicidal thoughts but didn’t give up because he realized he needed help and contacted a suicide hotline.
TOUR AGAINST HIS DEMONS
Toure called the Samaritans a line of suicide and said:
“I’m stuck with my thoughts – in my place in this world – down to the skin of my teeth.”
“Fortunately, that line was free, although the call still brought a sense of guilt and shame. That if I was really suicidal, I wouldn’t waste time calling anonymous helplines to talk about it. I would just do it. And that I only carry out this depression and its severity. “
“If I hadn’t started drinking, I wouldn’t have opened Pandora’s box to a depression that I knew well enough was waiting to wreak havoc at every opportunity.”
He stated that he stayed on the line for what felt like an hour and then crawled quietly into bed. The singer also stated that this happened towards the end of the initial lockdown and that being stuck at home didn’t feel any different from the way he normally led his life.
The lockdown actually gave him a great opportunity to focus and work on projects that he had left in the back of his mind.
“When I talk about it, I’m not talking about sadness or melancholy”
Toure also detailed his battle with depression and anxiety in the essay, noting:
“When I speak of this, I am not talking about the sadness or melancholy that everyone feels, be it rational reactions and reactions to events such as grief, breakups and general disappointments.”
Nakhane also openly admitted drinking alcohol on a daily basis when he was alone:
“In contrast to the time before the pandemic, when I had outlets: meeting friends, taking long aimless walks, touring my albums, visiting galleries and museums, this time I was stuck in my small apartment and drank more and more every day.”
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